Work & Wellness

I’ve been on a wellness journey for awhile now and understand more and more that if I am not consistently taking care of my physical ,mental, emotional and spiritual health, then I am not showing up fully as who I am to everything that I do. How could I possibly serve with a cup that is only half full or even empty, especially as a mother to my children, a wife, an artist, an entrepreneur, a facilitator, a friend and a community builder. I learned about Spiritual Activism when I did my Sacred Leadership Training with Sacred Women International back in 2017. In seeing how burnout can be such a reality for some of us, it’s important more so now then ever before to take care of self. I see self love as a revolutionary act and the biggest form of activism today!

Growing up, I was always the one that friends would turn to and come to for advice and to lean on for support. As far back as I can remember, I was always a shoulder for my mom to cry on. I got really good at holding space for others. I got really good at putting others’ needs first before my own and often lived in disappointment, resentment, anger, and loneliness. I would ask myself why doesn’t anyone ever check for me, look out for me, and hold space for me?! What I did not see then that I see now is that my value was so closely attached to what I give rather than just being me and not having to do!

When I turned 40, something within me clicked. Not only was I giving form an empty cup, but I was allowing people to take what little I had in my reserve bank. Like enough was enough. It was time to put myself first and take care of me. It was very shortly after my Dad passed away that I wanted to really live my life and to do that meant showing up for me. This new way of being Jothi has been emerging slowly. Every step of the way getting to know who I am again at 40 because I had spent most of my life coasting, roaming, in a fog, pleasing others, being there for everyone else but myself. It was my time.

I am still learning different ways to honour myself and take care of me. I see myself as a beautiful garden that needs to be nurtured and fostered. I have done some deep healing and with that I have seen my value and self worth emerge and who I really am under all the trauma and triumph. My spirit is so much more than the sum of all my parts. I am powerful and with that power comes responsibility. My mentor, teacher, and mama, Reverend Aina-Nia of Sacred Women International recently reminded me that I have a responsibility to lead myself first so that I am able to lead others.

So, I am really taking a closer look at what my emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual health looks like. I am taking inventory and what better month than Spring to do that. How do I show up for myself in these areas? Where can I improve or shift and what is working so far. How am I supported? I know for sure that there are going to be days that are tougher than others and so what tools do I have in my toolbox to help me get through these tough days. Who can I call upon to hold space for me to process what I am feeling or thinking? How being still and listening is key in my wellness journey. I have come such a long way in getting better at asking for help especially from other women. Breaking old patterns of internalizing my pain, not taking care of myself, and putting myself last when helping others, is my priority. It’s all so cyclical! When I take care of my body, mind, and soul on a daily, I am able to express, process and move through challenges, come from a place of gratitude and strength, serve my family, clients, friends, and community in a real way, and have deeper more meaningful connection to myself and others which feeds my soul. The impact on my whole self and others around me when I take care of myself, is huge! My light radiates this energy everywhere I go.

We are destined for greatness and have gifts to share but we must first give to ourselves, heal, and fill our cup. I don’t know about you, but I refuse to switch up hats and masks with every role that I play in this life. I am JOTHI and I want to show up fully as me to everyone and everything that I do. That means really knowing who I am. That means taking care of myself so that I can show up fully as who I am. It’s not always easy and I know that life can get the best of me at times but I am aware and that is a great start.

So if ever you are feeling that you do not have the work life balance that you want, ask yourself where your personal wellness practice sits on that line. Because, I bet if you were to put more time and energy into your own personal wellness, you would be more aware of what you want and deserve with work and life!

Take care of yourself and ensure that you have great wellness tools in place and people supporting your journey!

Look out for HER Space coming this Fall 2019!

A space for women to put their self care first for a couple of hours a week over the course of a month.

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Namaste!

Finding my Tribe

I have always been an introvert. As a child, youth, and young adult, I would roam around alone for hours, and hang out by myself all the time. I would get lost in my own thoughts and quite often get into trouble with my teachers and mom for daydreaming in school and at dinner. At times my thoughts would turn into negative self talk and then the loneliness would set in. The loneliness was so deep especially when I was a teen, that I wondered what I was even doing here on this earth. Like would anyone really miss me if I were gone? Those were some dark and sad days and I still feel lonely at times, but I know better now that that is my queue to be by myself and value my own company. I know more now that it is okay to be by myself and that this treasured time alone is so good for me! Since those dark, sad, and lonely days of my youth, I have gotten to know myself better and now enjoy and even love my own company.

I have yearned for sisterhood. I have my own sisters and women in my family as well as my bff, but I wanted and needed more, I wanted a TRIBE! Low and behold, Spirit led me to Sacred Women International. In 2017, I began a year long process called Sacred Leadership Training. Believe me when I tell you, I did not even come close to understanding what I was getting myself into! 2017 was the year my life changed! I was given space to do some deep soul searching work and the love that I had for my own company led me to further discover my very own essence, place of joy, peace, and light that exists within me. I connected with a sisterhood like never before. A deeper understanding and knowing of self led me to deeply valuing Sacred Sisterhood in ways that I have never ever experienced before. I am my sister’s keeper turned into I AM MY SISTER! I am so grateful to Sacred Women International for this new way of leading self to lead others. SO powerful!

I come from a very large family of mostly women and yet even though we are family, I feel like I want more meaningful connections with them, and that it is okay to wish for more. Perhaps with family and our history, we can always pick up where we left off and there is an unspoken understanding that we will always have each other’s backs. I am exploring this and know that like tending to a garden, I feel that trust in relationships are fostered and grown. So, when I asked Spirit for more sisterhood, I feel that I got to choose Sacred Sisterhood. When these beautiful Sisters came into my life, other women showed up in my life and more deep and meaningful connection came to me. I know that Spirit was at work. I know that my Ancestors led me to my Sacred Sisters.

I continue to work on uncovering my essence, stand in my power, and use my voice to express my boundaries with love, patience, and empathy. I am not always successful, but I am aware and that is a great first step! I am unlearning and unpacking some past patterns that do not serve me and I am learning to courageously open my heart for love from women who honour my spirit. It is an amazing journey and at almost 48, I am finding my tribe. I am so grateful for this time in my life to see in others what they see in me.

Next up, I will be opening up my heart to writing a personal essay for Kaur Space on how I navigate inter-generational trauma as a 40+ daughter and mother. These traumas are very much a part of my dark and lonely spaces and where my mom may have not been given the platforms or safety to face it, I have this beautiful opportunity to face them, move through them, heal and move on! Facing the traumas of generations of women in my family who have come before me, as well as my own, does not feel so daunting when I have been given Sacred tools, I have Sacred Sisterhood, I have family and my own magical essence and power, Spirit and Ancestral Wisdom enveloping me. This time is such a gift from Spirit to heal, shed light on the darkness, rebuild, reconnect with self, and break the cycles for my daughter and son. I am eternally grateful for these gifts!


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Process Art

When I was young I used to create art to escape from my reality. A difficult reality filled with anger, volatility and unpredictable situations. I was always so afraid and anxious about what was in store for me when I got home or woke up. Art, writing and music helped me feel free and even joyful. I felt that I could breathe and move and most importantly express myself using these tools.

Now as a 40+ woman, I am still healing from some of the things that I experienced as a child, youth, and young adult. I find myself once again using art to help me to process what is coming to the surface. In my last blog post I spoke about this liminal space that I find myself in often. It is in this space that I want to heal so that I can clearly see what lays ahead and which path to take in any given area of my life.

Yesterday, I went outside and took some deep breaths and looked for natural items to make tools with. I touched leaves and snipped at branches and picked out stones and wood. I found dried flowers from the summer before and realised that new buds were appearing all around me. I found thrown away objects that could create interesting shapes. I cut and made paint brushes from fluffly pom poms and twine. Using what I already had, what I made, and Mother Earth’s natural tools, I was ready to create!

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Next step for me was to go inward. What am I feeling, where is my heart and spirit sitting. Part of me feels scattered, multi-tasking, busy, and overwhelmed. Too many pots on the stove. So, I thought of splatter art. Using paint brushes to have fun with colour and make a mess! Art should be fun, free, and unstructured to be able to really let loose and be expressive. I created Splatter Garden cards in honour of Spring. Where the chaos of the splatter meets beautiful blooms. I know that in my messy mind there in lies beautiful thoughts filled with love and light.

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Now I was warmed up and my creative juices were flowing. I used the mark maker tools that I created along traditional paint brushes, water colour and ink to create a Fantasy Garden. I was still feeling the Spring theme, where so much is born and new again. Where life is happening as I type! A space for me to explore, imagine, and play with colour, layering, mark makers, nature’s tools, let go and have fun. Where I could work out some of the business inside of me to create a garden of all the emotions I am feeling.

Creating my Fantasy Garden helped me to release and surrender to process. To breathe through some pain and sadness. To let go and be free for a few hours from responsibility and obligations and be with myself allowing what is inside to appear before me. Creating art creates presence. My spirit is at work when I create.

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So, yeah, this is a glimpse into how I processed my emotions this week using art and even in writing this blog. It is important for me to document what I do, how I feel before and after an arts process, and identifying the benefits and drawbacks. Then I can actually see the process in it’s entirety and do it again!

If you like what you see and are interested in this particular journey, please contact me. I would be honoured to support you.

Happy Spring!

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The Liminal Space

Liminal is the Latin word for “threshold”.  A time between the ‘what was’ and the ‘what’s next’. It is a place of transition, waiting, not knowing.  That moment right before you are about to take the plunge, next step, and make a decision ‘yes’ or ‘no’. It’s an important space filled with choice and great power!

The liminal space or in-between space can be so full of polarizing emotions. I imagine it as this beautiful clearing in the woods where pathways that I have walked lay behind me and fresh new pathways emerge in front of me. A space where there is power to choose the meaningful ways that I can and want to connect to my past. Receiving the wisdom of my Ancestors and learning from my experiences that encompass both successes and failures. I also get to look ahead and choose what my next step is going to be. In one fowl swoop I can catch my breath, move, and ultimately make a decision that may change my life forever and have a great impact on those around me, my community, and even the world!

Photo Taken By Joan Jothi Saldanha Fall 2017

Photo Taken By Joan Jothi Saldanha Fall 2017

I see the liminal space as such a powerful opportunity to be still, reflect, give thanks, breathe, process, and just be in my feelings. We are in a very fast paced world where at the click of a button voila, you have what you want or at times what you don’t want. There has been many times where I wished that I had not pressed ‘send’ and if I had only taken a little more time and thought, I would have done things differently. The liminal space allows for this time and thought.

Sometimes when I am here in this in-between space, I feel overwhelmed by so many different emotions. I feel like this space can hold regret, grief, sadness, resentment, frustration, and anger especially when I look back to some of the not-so favourable paths that I chose to walk along. I know that all of my decisions good or bad have led me to this place, but this does not negate the feelings that arise from some of those experiences. I can come out of an unhealthy relationship, job, or even moment and find myself in this liminal space.  After I’ve had a good scream into my pillow, punched it a few times, and had a good cry, I can hold space, forgive myself, receive the lessons, express my gratitude, breathe, and heal. This space allows me to take pause and reflect on how I got to this very moment in time. I can take these moments, days, weeks, however long I need to sit in it, but I will not get stuck here.

With healing comes release and now this space has even more space for hope, imagination, and exploration. This is now a space where I can feel free and light and know that I have choice with my next move, my next breath. Now in this pause I can ask myself what is it that I really want and what am I capable of doing next?  Again, stillness, breath, reflection, gratitude, process, and activation can be present. To be still and use my body to sit with spirit, connect and listen to Ancestors, to just be with self for some time, is so powerful especially with everything around me being so fast. The liminal space becomes a soft, safe, and supported space for me to be. A space where I surrender to Spirit and trust that I am where I’m supposed to be. A space of magic, abundance, and possibilities!

For me, the liminal space is where I process, heal, rest, gain strength, dream, plan, and then move on. Now I feel ready to take the next step and make a choice as to what path to take.   I can take the next step knowing that I am enough and have everything that I need.

 

“Liminal space is where all transformation takes place, if we were to wait and let it form us.”

-www.liminalspace.org

 

Now that you know that this space exists for you, will you use it to your advantage and spend some time there?  It’s yours to take up!

If you are interested in exploring the liminal space and would like support, please reach out to me.  I am in this space every single day and know it well.

I will be speaking about what this liminal space means to me and will be visually showcasing what it looks like through my art at The Wild Nellies Celebration of Women. Hope to see you there!

Let’s connect!

Rebirth

I am embarking on a new chapter in my life and it's yet another major shift and in order for me to make sense of it, I gotta write about it!


2017 was a year of incredible growth for me... 

I finished up a Social Enterprise Accelerator with Community Innovations Lab in June. I began the most amazing 10 month journey to self and the divine within me, through a Sacred Leadership Training program with Sacred Women International from February to December which culminated at the Accompong Festival in Jamaica, a transformational week!  I was given the Impact Ajax Grant from the Town of Ajax to run a pilot project called Creative Community,  for newcomers with Community Development Council of Durham for two 6 week workshops ending in November with a final exhibit at the end of the year at the Robert McLaughlin Gallery where I was also accepted as an Artist in Residency from December-January.  I applied for an Ontario Arts Council  Artists in Community & Schools grant to expand the Creative Community Project to Regent Park in partnership with Toronto Centre for Community Learning & Development and Daniels Spectrum.  I received an award for my contributions as an entrepreneur with Souful Image Magazine and was a keynote speaker at a South Asian event for Men's Services for Mental Health.  I travelled to NYC, NJ and Spain with the family.  I am currently in a Leadership Durham Program which ends in June and just applied for a year long intensive Mentorship Program with Community Innovations Lab



As I reflect on 2017, so many things took place to contribute to my spiritual growth and then my body reminded me time and time again that I was ageing.  I am in perimenopause and I wasn't quite sure what to expect but know now that unless I embrace and accept this part of my ageing process, I will have difficulties. One of the many important lessons that I learned in Sacred Leadership Training is that it does not have to be difficult.  In fact, it is difficult, then there are blocks somewhere that I need to work out.   Last year I saw my period begin to fade away.  I think I had it 4-6 times for the entire year!  I knew that my body was undergoing a transformation.  It was interesting to feel this great spiritual growth with all of the wonderful new experiences that were manifesting in my life, but I wasn't so sure how I felt about the physical changes that were happening at the same time.  Physical changes like weight gain, hair loss, skin changes, lowered energy levels, insomnia and polarizing mood swings...my poor family!  As a woman, to know that my sacral chakra - emotional body, sensuality, and creativity, the space of creation and life within me, was beginning to change, was difficult to come to terms with.  I have been so blessed to be able to carry and birth two children and now that part of my body was shutting down....for good!  I was in denial.  I was feeling lesser than.  My connection to the Moon, Mother Earth, having these monthly cycles where I would bleed, shed, cleanse, and rest, was no longer happening.  What did this mean for me as a woman?!  I still find it hard to articulate how I am feeling about this.  I am feeling a sense of loss and confusion as to what happens next.  I also began to feel the effects of hormonal shifts.  Decrease in estrogen production begins to happen at this stage because our bodies are no longer naturally producing this stress management hormone.  Now I am realizing that I have to not only understand my perimenopausal journey and what is happening internally, but also how it will affect my emotions and mental state of being.  


ACCEPTANCE - embracing what is happening within me physically, mentally and spiritually.

2018 is going to be a time for me to align this beautiful spiritual transformation to a higher consciousness state of being with a strengthened physical and mental/emotional state of being.  How will I align these areas?  I broke it down to a 3 Desires for 2018  approach and how I  envision these areas of my life to look like at optimal levels.  Then I laid out my expectations and ideal outcomes in these areas.  BIG shout out and THANK YOU to my my teacher and guide, Reverend Aina-Nia of Sacred Women International for sharing your wisdom and inspiring me to do this!

1.  MIND BODY SOUL

  • What will I do to mentally stay sharp and always learning and growing? 
  • How will I take care of my body better, healing, strengthening and embracing the changes ahead? 
  • How will I continue my spiritual journey to self acceptance and love?

2.  PURPOSE

  • Where do I see my art, photography and community work going for 2018 and beyond, how will I foster growth in these areas?

3.   CONNECTION

  • How will I create deeper more meaningful connections with my children, husband, family, other women and the community?

It all begins with a plan.  I created my Desire Board after much needed time of stillness, silence and reflection in January.  Now, I am ready to take on 2018 from a place of wisdom. 

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I feel like I have been reborn.  I feel like a beautiful wise woman who is holding and nurturing this newborn within.  I have never been here before yet I feel like I've come home and arrived somewhere very familiar.  I am still working it out and feeling extremely grateful for this pivotal time in my life to further manifest my destiny.  

Stay tuned for more!!!!

The Future of My Identity

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I have been grappling with what identity means to me and the many hats that make me ME!  Labels get the best of us and I am no exception.  It's almost like in order for me to be seen and heard, I must identify myself first.  Hi, my name is Joan Jothi Saldanha and I am a South Asian Canadian woman, wife, mother, artist, entrepreneur.  BUT WAIT!  I am soooo much more than that!  Why do I feel this deep need to fit in?!  

I think that it all started with my precarious beginnings.  I was born in Bangalore India and moved to Toronto in 1973.  We very swiftly assimilated into what 'Canadian' identity looked like back then.  Although my parents meant well, my mother tongue Hindi was never uttered to me and I distinctly remember my mom mastering the art of casserole making and hockey playing!  We moved to Alberta when I was 6 and being 'Canadian' took on a much deeper meaning when most of my friends were Indigenous because I was one of three South Asian families and I was walking knee deep in the frigid cold deep freeze for miles to get to school.  My mom often recounts stories of my eyelashes falling off from frost bite when I was a wee little one.  I also remember climbing trees, bike riding till the street lights came on, building forest forts for hours on end, and camping in May waking up to snow!  No saris, no sweet sounds of the sitar and tabla, no Hindi or Sanskrit words, no Hindi movies or Bangara dancing.  The 'omission' of 'Indian culture' put me in this weird foggy zone where I found myself isolated and lost almost to a point of confusion.  Who was I and where did I belong?

Fast forward to present times and I am still asking this question.  The South Asian community is very large as you can imagine.  There are over 2 billion people in India,  so our migration reaches far and wide.  The christian South Asian community is a little smaller but still huge.  When we moved back to the Tdot back in 1983, aside from family, I did not have any brown friends.  I still do not have many brown friends.  That lack of connection to my community kinda gets to me.  I see the closeness within the Sikh, Muslim, Hindu, and Tamil communities and in how they support one another socially and through business.  Why is it that I find myself in the margins with my own people?  

There was a time a couple of years ago that I attempted to bring some bad ass brown girls together in a meet up called Brown Girl Badness and even then I felt that I did not quite fit in.  Even then I felt invisible.

I am left wanting to figure this shit out more so now then ever before!  Is it imperative that I give myself some titles and labels and if so, WHY?  I do know this, it is important to me to self-identify!  The power is mine to do so and change it up at any time.  I am learning more and more each day that I identify with what my spirit shows me.  I know that my ancestral roots are Hindu and that my ancestral voices are louder than ever. I hear and feel them guiding me to this self-discovery.   I know that I am a cis-gendered woman of colour, artist, wife, mom and entrepreneur.  I know that I am a survivor and community wellness advocate.  I know that my lived experience with mental illness, abuse, addiction, migration, racism and trauma DO NOT define me because I am soooo much more than that!

I am enjoying this exploration.  I want to talk about it some more with others.  I want to know more from others what their thoughts are around their own identity. 

Let's talk! Shoot me an email or add a comment below on what you think about this topic!

Vulnerability

Last week I sat down with Karen Carrington on her brand new show 'The Karen Carrington Show' and it was a huge step in my Spiritual Healing journey!

I practiced some deep meditation and breathing on the way there because I was super nervous, but I arrived at a very centred and calm place.  I felt ready!  Karen made me feel so comfortable.  She has a way about her, a realness, an authentic caring in wanting to know who you are.  A beautiful vibration began to fill the room. I love to share some of the amazing experiences I am going through in my life, but when it comes to my childhood/youth and the tough things that I went through, sharing publicly can be a very scary step for me.  I wanted to really dig deep and tell my story and I did!  It puts a lot of context around why I do what I do now.  Why I create art and educate children, youth and families on how art can be used as a tool to heal and express their stories.  If you ever wondered why I work so hard to build and carve out space for myself to work my magic through art, it is because creating art saved my life!

after the show!

after the show!

After my interview, I felt so uplifted.  My courage held me throughout the interview and being centred within my spiritual essence allowed me to articulate my truth.  The views were great and feedback even better.  I began to hear from women that I helped by sharing my story.  I was in a whirlwind of light!  Then I began to have this uneasy feeling in the pit of my tummy and started to think how my family would see this interview and me for not letting them know that I would be sharing some 'stuff' from our past.  I felt pangs of guilt, pain and fear of the potential reactions I may receive from my family.  I immediately went within and used tools that I have learned throughout my Sacred Leadership Training to honour my journey and detach from the path that others are on.  I understood better that this is my journey and nobody else's.  If anything came up for my family members, then it would have to be their choice to do something about it or not.  This has nothing to do with me.  I can support them, but I cannot control how they react.  Phew!  Now I felt that I could go back to the light that I was soaking in, soaking up and emitting from my soul!

Then I heard from my cousin, aunties, and my MOM!  They shared loving words of support and expressions of reverence and joy for my courage and articulation.  I am over the Moon for their reaffirmations and feel so held in this place of love!

Vulnerability is as real as it gets.  To me, this word means so much and is synonymous to LIVING LIFE!  If we cannot be real, share our sadness, pain along with our victories and joys, then how human are we?  Everyone experiences an array of emotions with any given experience, good or bad, and sharing how we feel is so important in the evolution of our spirits.  Living in higher consciousness is about connection to our spirit and to the Divine Essence around us. It's about deepening our gratitude for the abundance around us and recognising that WE are all WE need.  YOU are enough!  Your very existence and being is enough! You can change the world by sharing your truth and your Spirit!

So, I GIVE THANKS!  I am so grateful for Karen, for the platform she is creating, for her voice and energy that attracts and brings out these stories deep within us.  I am grateful for my childhood, the good, the bad and the ugly.  For the joyful moments, triumphs, pain, and trauma. I give thanks for every step before my next one and for the steps along this journey that have made me who I am in this very moment.  I give thanks for the present and all that is, around and within me.  I am so grateful for the courage to share and put into words what I have only been able to create in art.  I am so thankful for the impact that I am having on others and for the transformative healing powers this experience has had on me.

Check out the complete interview here: https://www.facebook.com/frequency5fm/videos/1342143562581945/


This piece is written in loving memory of my late great Mom, Grandma and Friend - Patricia Campbell.  Happy Birthday, we miss you and we love you~

The very last pic we took together june,  2015 xo

The very last pic we took together june,  2015 xo

21 Day Challenge

Today I began a 21 Day Get Fit Challenge!

I am freaking out a little but super excited to get fit, feel good, eat right and be healthier.  It's time!  I feel like it's the missing piece to my life.  I am on this journey of self-discovery and development.  I feel incredibly grateful for my journey so far with Sacred Leadership Training that began in March and ends in December and no the start of Leadership Durham Program that ends in May.  I have my arts residency and exhibit at The Robert McLaughlin Gallery from December to January and feel so grateful for this opportunity.  So, between my personal Spiritual practice, artist practice and professional development, a very important part of my journey is missing.  That is feeling good, looking good and becoming healthier through physical fitness and better nutrition.  I know that this will catapult the momentum that I have established thus far.  I am super excited and terrified all at the same time.  I really want to succeed!  I have developed some pretty nasty eating habits and have next to no exercise on a daily.   I am 46 years old and feel my age when I can't keep up with the kids, detest my body and feel sluggish.  I want to model good eating habits and physical fitness every day to my children.  I also want to be around to meet my great grandchildren!

So, here goes!  For the next 21 days and beyond, I will do the following:

  • walk every day - I initiated a local walking group, so join us here if you would like

  • smoothies for breakfast and lunch week 1, adding nutritional proteins and veggies for dinner, then lunch(week 2), then breakfast(week 3)

I am on a serious mission and it's going to be tough, but I am going to do it.  I will do what it takes to get healthy and feel good again!

Wanna join me?  Please feel free to share you health & fitness goals, journey and results!  I want to learn and be inspired.

As My Journey Unfolds

Welcome!


Today I share some of what I have been doing, what's ahead, but most importantly, this very moment in time!

I have been working very hard to align my artist/photography practice, facilitation/education, community building, womanhood, motherhood, partnerships, friendships, sisterhoods, spirituality, healing and evolution.  Not an easy task!  What has helped me is stopping and understanding that everything I feel, think, plan and execute is so deeply connected .  For example, being a mom and wife is impacted by the work that I do in the community and the art that I create. 

I see my spirit on one very clear and beautiful path with the ever changing scenery, the gifts and lessons that come with some of the  turns and bumps along the way.  So, I set out on a journey to bring all of what I do to one home, Jothi  The amazing team at Joint Development Collective, specifically Maria, captured my essence in such a fun, clear and authentic way and I am so grateful to them!  This is a place where you can get to know everything that my spirit is. I would love to know what you think!

"There is no force greater than a woman determined to rise"


THEN I embarked on a 10-month Sacred Leadership Training through

Sacred Women International

A journey that one can never be completely ready for but a journey EVERYONE should take! This world would be a very different place!

I am undergoing a serious spiritual awakening.  That is the best way to describe it. Learning ways in which I should be honouring my spirit, my truth, my gifts!  Understanding the power within, the power of meditation, listening to my ancestors and following my intuition.  Being grateful and knowing just how abundant life is.  Being more disciplined in spiritual practices and tools for clarity of vision and desires.  Accountability to self on a whole other level.  Full spectrum living!  Everything is connected....like, ease of flow of money, clean and clear living space, healthy eating, consistent physical activity, laughter, visualization, meditation, breathing, daily gratitude and grounding....the list goes on.  Bringing all of these areas to my walk along my clear path allows for ease.  I feel lighter and more open and free.  I feel a sense of peace. Don't get me wrong, I have many triggers and still a long way to go with my healing, but I am on a clear and open path for the first time in my life.

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Upcoming Projects

  • Creative Community 6-week Pilot Project  - 2 Sessions,  July/August & October/November

  • Art Exhibit - Robert McLaughlin Gallery, Oshawa - December 5 to January 5

  • Choose to Boost - Ministry of Health and Ajax Library, November to December

In this very moment I am filled with such awe and gratitude.  I feel that I am living my purpose more and more each day.  I am in alignment with Spirit.

Thank YOU for taking a few minutes to walk with me.  I appreciate your time and energy and I look forward to hearing from you.

Until next time!

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Artist Life

Artist Life

For the last two years both my kids have been in school fulltime.  I decided to pour my heart and soul into my visual art, photography and writing. It’s been an amazing journey with my very first show in the Fall of 2013 as a vendor and then Summer 2014 I did my first Art in the Park, Fall school fair, and a few Christmas shows. It has been a great start!

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My journey continues…

My journey continues…

So my journey continues with a few bumps and some new opportunities.  June has been a bit of a challenging month thus far but is now taking a turn for the better. I am sure I can thank Mercury in Retrograde for that in part, and PMS in other parts and just good old unexpected let downs and trip ups on my part.  What I have always found so fascinating is the timing of all of these parts set in motion with such synchronicity! Just as the saying goes….when it rains it pours!!!

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